Ive got this blog entry from Gab (choirmate) and thought of sharing this one to you as well,.. this is so nice... i have Bolded and Underlined which for me i think, is the most beautiful part about this entry and you might want to read this as well, this is worth reading..

LESSON: Say always what you feel, not what you think…=))

 

Gabriel Garcia Marquez is a famous writer from Columbia. He is a Nobel Peace prize winner for literature and is undoubtedly a genius. He has retired from public life for reasons of health. He has a form of cancer which is terminal. He has sent a farewell letter to all his friends and it has been circulated around the Internet.

 

It is recommended reading because it is moving to see how one of the best and most brilliant of writers expresses himself and with sorrow.

 

 

HE SAYS:
 

 If God, for a second, forgot what I have become and granted me a little bit more of life, I would use it to the best of my ability. I wouldn't possibly say everything that is in my mind, but I would be more thoughtful of all I say.

I would give merit to things not for what they are worth, but for what they mean to express. I would sleep little, I would dream more, because I know that for every minute that we close our eyes, we waste 60 seconds of light. I would walk while others stop; I would awake while others sleep.

If God would give me a little bit more of life, I would dress in a simple manner. I would place myself in front of the sun, leaving not only my body, but my soul naked at its mercy. To all men I would say how mistaken they are when they think that they stop falling in love when they grow old, without knowing that they grow old when they stop falling in love.

I would give wings to children, but I would leave it to them to learn how to fly by themselves. To old people I would say that death doesn't arrive when they grow old, but with forgetfulness.

I have learned so much with you all, I have learned that everybody wants to live on top of the mountain, without knowing that true happiness is obtained in the journey taken and the form used to reach the top of the hill. I have learned that when a newborn baby holds, with its little hand, his father's finger, it has trapped him for the rest of his life. I have learned that a man has the right and obligation to look down at another man, only when that man needs help to get up from the ground.

Say always what you feel, not what you think. If I knew that today is the last time that I am going to see you asleep, I would hug you with all my strength and I would pray to the Lord to let me be the guardian angel of your soul. If I knew that these are the last moments to see you, I would say 'I love you'. There is always tomorrow, and life gives us another opportunity to do things right; but in case I am wrong, and today is all that is left to me, I would love to tell you how much I love you and that I will never forget you.

Tomorrow is never guaranteed to anyone, young or old. Today could be the last time to see your loved ones, which is why you mustn't wait; do it today, in case tomorrow never arrives. I am sure you will be sorry you wasted the opportunity today to give a smile, a hug, a kiss, and that you were too busy to grant them their last wish.

Keep your loved ones near you; tell them in their ears and to their faces how much you need them and love them. Love them and treat them well; take your time to tell them 'I am sorry'; 'forgive me', 'please', 'thank you', and all those loving words you know.

Nobody will know you for your secret thought. Ask the Lord for wisdom and strength to express them. Show your friends and loved ones how important they are to you.

Send this letter to those you love. If you don't do it today...tomorrow will be like yesterday; and if you never do it, it doesn't matter, either, the moment to do it is now.

For you, with much love,

Your Friend

Gabriel Garcia Marquez.

it's been a year and a couple of weeks ago since i passed the board exam and stepped into the world of independence. After passing the boards, i started preparing myself for the corporate world for i am not expecting that my parents will send me to med school. I totally understand their reason because they still have 2 more guys to send to school and they cannot afford to send me to school again at this point.

So what i did, i immediately looked for a job - being a pharmacist. Unfortunately, i dont see my self confined inside a room full of cabinets, memorizing all the drugs listed in the hospital formulary. Being a hospital pharmacist is very fulfilling, but that doesnt fit me. I pushed my luck and tried to send resume on well known manufacturing labs in the country but not as an industrial pharmacist nor a quality control analyst, as a medical representative instead. Fortunately, i got hired in one of the divisions of United Laboratories - BioFemme which caters to all the women's health care and wellness. I enjoy doing the job, some benefits that would compensate an ounce of salary that i get, privelege to travel, free gasoline, free phone and phonebills (1k limit),  not to mention the car that you can use for personal affairs, per diem etc.

But come to think of it, these things are just temporary, i guess the important thing that i should look upon is the salary. i must admit that i dont get what i deserve but, i work for them based on what i get.

ealier, i was talking to my mom and she's asking if i can pay for my brother's tuition fee worth 10thousand plus. Honestly, i dont have enough money, i dont have as much as 10thousand pesos. i have a few savings but isnt enough to send my brother to school or even pay for the dues, i would love to but i am not capable of doing it. What hurts me is that my mom told me unintentionally that i might be spending the money that i earn just for myself. My mom has no intentions to hurt me, she's just asking if i can now support them but still cant.

I dont know what to say, i was so disappointed with myself that i didnt know where i sent all the money that i earned. My excuse will always be, i just started earning money and im just starting to enjoy what i earn for now. I didnt know or even realized that i have obligations for them.

a lot of things about me has changed, my lifestyle, my mindset, my priorities, my behavior, and others and these things has gone to worse i  guess. I have a sedentary lifestyle, no mindset, no priorities, and an unbecoming behavior which is not good of course. And how will i learn from these? I am young, sometimes i need guidance, sometimes i need no one just to learn, at this point, i really dont know what to do..

exactly.. sa tagalog - sakto lang?

 

-nonsense to haha may maipost lang

Updates on this so called "LIFE"

1. My computer sucks! sira na... cafe guy na ko ngayon after ko mag-area... wushuuu... hahaha

2. May rep kami na pinatay...

3. I almost died, got my car pinned by a 10 wheeler truck and a jeepney.. Thank God im alive... (pictures soon)

4. Obimin (our latest prenatal and postnatal supplement) was launched at the Crowne Plaza Galleria...

5. Di yta ako quota this qtr.

6. But i made it on the 1st qtr.. 101% haha

7. Still searching for dispensing drs for my products, i have targets... hmmm

8. i bought my mom a boquet of flowers, cake and dinner on her birthday.

9. Missing Friends

10. Missing School

11. I'll go to palawan next week for our national conference.. (excited for the plane ride! - 1stym)

12. Tired of working

13. I wish im still schooling

14. did i say i miss my friends?

15. -nothing much-

what i miss about going online is to write things on what's in and out of my life, my whereabouts and just any random thought that's going around my head.. but recently, since i got in to the field, i never thought of doing so... i got tired, lost energy and what else, just read posts of others, and worst... i dont read at all... sometimes, i just stare at them,, hehe

there's really nothing new... everything's going fine, steady, "sakto lang"... there are times that i feel like pissed off because of some series of unexpected events but i guess time and my age has taught me to just ignore these things, and sometimes deal with it... (depends on the situation). there are times that i just get tired of doing things that i normally do... (pacute sa cam, magchat, magonline, upload and download, magsurvey etc,) not because i dont want to do them, but im just too tired to do it... id rather take a handfull of sleep or have great american idol season marathon than to say hi to the web. (but sometimes, i really try to make pacute sa cam... but it wont work... i just look older than i thought)

plus! there are millions of multiply users all over the country, and for me, nawala na yung purpose ko why i used multiply... i thought that multiply wouldn't be a hit and could be a place where i can have some little "privacy" - my silent sanctuary (if there is - on the web) i used to write entries where i reveal my life's going ons when i was in college, but now, since a lot of people are viewing these pages of yours, mine and some others, prang it's harder to keep a secret on the web? (that's so nonsense... how can i keep a secret on the web?). sad part is, you cant see people's reactions on whatever you write, post or whatever,,, just a few words from the reply box,,, but sometimes it helps

anyway, aside from the fact that i've grown big,,, (mind you, im back with the 168 lbs which used to be my weight when i was a college freshman) i was in 140lbs last year before board exams and ive grown this big again... which makes me feel insecure at the moment... but who cares? (I CARE! ... i really care about my weight! huhu) nakakalungkot... this is one of the things that my work has demanded, since we dont eat on time, like 3pm is my lunch time, i would eat more than what i am supposed to eat just to compensate the hunger that i feel, but it's not proper, im trying to work on this problem right now...

-pang asar pa nila... nagbabangaan na daw legs ko pag naglalakad! (totoo ba?! ate kayanne sagutin mo nga! =/ )

i miss my friends... super college friends, i wnet out to see them few weeks ago and stayed at shimee's but that was too short... we have a lot of stories to tell, and i really need them to keep me away from insanity...

I miss marianne.. ("we" miss you mars!) "lola! tutulog ka na lola?" hehehe
and my heart still beats for someone who deserves it...

and everything's just fine... Nothing new...

Since wala ako magawa... thanks to meca, im tagged...

sideline ko ang pagiging taxi driver

i tag:
ate kayanne
Marianne
nick
paolo
sheena
at kahit sinong gustong magpa-tag.. go lang!

Sa mga nakaraang araw, itinuon ko ang aking pansin sa mga bagay na alam kong mas higit na importante sa akin, Sarili, Trabaho, Kaligayahan, Kaibigan ngunit minsa'y nakaligtaan ko na ang aking pamilya... (masama, kaya nga't ako'y pilit na gumagawa ng paraan upang makabawi sa mga pagkukulang) Ngunit kadalasa'y hindi sapat...

Marami kang bagay na isasakripisyo para sa isang bagay at gayun din sa iba... Kasama ng sakripisyo ay ang mga pagsubok na kailangan mong harapin para mapatibay ang isang bagay na pinangangalagaan mo. Minsa'y magkakamali ka at sisihin ang sarili mo, Minsan naman ay isisisi mo sa iba, at kung minsan wala ka na talagang magagawa. Ngunit kung ang isang bagay ay itinakda na matapos, ito ay matatapos. Kung ito ay itinakdang magpatuloy ito ay magpapatuloy... Ngunit sa mundong ito, at ayon sa sariling paniniwala ko, ang lahat ng bagay ay hindi itinakda... Lahat ng Bagay ay desisyon mo sa buhay... ang isang bagay na nagkaroon ng katapusan ay hindi itinakda ngunit dinesisyunang tapusin ng mga tao o bagay na kabilang sa sitwasyon... Kung ito ay ipinagpatuloy, ito parin ay isang desisyon na ipagpatuloy... desisyon mong ilipat ang switch ng tv, bumili ng luho, matulog, kumanta.. lahat yan ay desisyon.

Gusto ko lang ihalintulad ang sitwasyon sa taong may bisyo...

iisipin ng magulang: "napabarkada kasi tong anak ko kaya nagkabisyo" - isinisisi sa iba ang mga pagkakamaling nagawa...
Ngunit kung tutuusin, walang dapat sisihin kundi ang mga taong nagdesisyon para magkabisyo ang isang tao. Desisyon ng magulang na wag bantayan ang bata... kaya't eto ang resulta.. desisyon din ng anak na mapabilang sa mga may bisyo.. kaya't walang dapat sisihin kundi silang mga involved...

napaka nonsense ng sulat kong ito... Walang fluidity, walang viscosity... Minsan lang kasi ako mag Online.. Napapabayaan ko na ang blog ko.. Pero sa totoo lang, kaya't minsan lang ako mag Online...



kasi...


Wala akong pambili ng Load! hehehehe


gnyt!

When Reality...

maybe i really am...

Every Romeo has a Juliet
Wishful thinkers have their stars
Hopeless romantics each have a love song
Played on their guitars

But you, you're everything
This foolish heart could ever define
Every wish, every dream, every prayer come true
I feel so blessed to call you mine

You're my you, even more
No one else I'll adore
You're my you, in my mind
Simply one of a kind
You're the one who never fails to brighten my day
My princess in every fairytale
You're my mornin' 'til night
Such a beautiful sight
You're my you

Your eyes, your lips
The touch of your fingertips
Promise me you'll never take them away
For as long as I exist

You're my you, even more
No one else I'll adore
You're my you, in my mind
Simply one of a kind
You're the one who never fails to brighten my day
My princess in every fairytale
You're my mornin' 'til night
Such a beautiful sight

You're the heat of the fire in a cold winter's night
You're a raindrop in June, you're the sun
You're the one, you're my you

- nyoy volante

                            I lost my voice…

                                             …. I can’t sing 

                I can’t create a sound….

                               Just Plain silence 

                       …And failure…

Post 10 things that recently made you happy, then tag ten other people and spread the love:

1. apimachalee day! camadu

2. My mom finally talked to me after a few days of cold treatment coz i always go home late and i always missed bringing her to her workplace

3. 17 calls last tuesday and 13 calls this day.. except yesterday, i only had 5... but still fine

4. I had one dispensing md who placed orders... FINALLY! wooot!

5. my 2 brothers

6. jen and grace (my companions sa coverage.. uber thanks!)

7. Life and love. =)

8. my boss isnt super mad last meeting

9. i finally got my FLEET CARD! Yahey!

10. Ate kayanne's pamana (the headrest pillows)

 i have more than 10 i guess...

11. my new airfreshener hehe bangu bango!

12. Marikina Riverbanks

13. FOOD! Yummy!

14. Im SOo baboy! hoinks! T_T huhuhu

15. cake

16. milk

17. sinigang na hipon

18. everytime i hear dont stop the music, because of you and Low

19. Love

20. Friends

- i got one sad thing...

1. my lola suffered from heart attack this morning,, she's now fine but we need your prayers... i'll see her tomorrow night.. =(

Since my camadu is away since saturday morning to go on some tour for the "pengkapeka festival" or shall i say "Panagbenga festival", and ive got nothing to do but sleep, tv, sleep, snore, read some people's blog entry, sleep again, eat and eat and most specially eat... I have decided that before this long weekend ends, i have to write an entry regarding "D' Anothers.." 

D' Anothers - not the movie, but D' Anothers...

Earlier this morning, i was talking to a good friend since college whom i missed so much... and whom i know misses me double the dose... Matagal na kaming di nakapag usap and i know that we have a lot of things to catch up because from what i remember, the very last time we did a little chitchat was when she went here sa house dahil she misses me daw.. hmmm hehehe she went here right before her duty, had her dinner here and then i took her to a place nearby where she could take a ride back to her duty... after that, we never had the chance to talk again... Missing her...

well, the reason why i mentioned her is because of her situation right now... we havent talked much about it yet, but i guess, its about time to write an entry...

D' Anothers - In my own point of view / my own dictionary

• A person who consciously, subconsiously or unconsciosly enters a relationship wherein the other party has a significant other.
• A person who intentionally enters a relationship where the other party has a significant other and the person has personal intetions of bringing the "other" relationship to an end.
• Two people who are currently in a relationship but still chooses to be in another relationship for they can feel better whenever they are together.
• A person who's willing to be the other man, or the other woman for some selfish reasons.. (ouch!)
  
• They are neither good nor bad people, they're just humans... who seeks love, knows how to love, seeks time and willing to give their time, seeks attention and knows how to give proper attention. (so true)
  
• NOT THE MOVIE
• Nothing follows... (well, if you have some other definitions, feel free to post on the comment box..)
• BTW, these are my own definitions...
  

D' Anothers... is it a trend?

ive been surrounded by a lot of people, sets of friends, acquaintances who are currently in the "D' anothers" band wagon. even i myself have experienced the same kind of situation... I have heard issues from different sets of people but they all have the same stories, and most specially, the same bottomline...

They're not happy, they're not happy anymore, or they've never been
with the "other" relationship not with "D' another" (mind you..)

so what should they do? here comes someone who's showing some intentions of wanting to know you, spending time with you, showing some "real love" (in your own point of view), making "D' Moves" or whatever.. and you are currently weak because of your situation... hmmm.. i really dont know,..

Im not saying that having "D' another" is good... of course it's not good, but it depends on the situation... (wala yata akong concrete evidence of having D' Another is good.. hehe)

Somebody told me that the moment you said "I Love You" to someone, you are taking all the risks of hurting... Loving goes hand in hand with hurting. We cant have the most perfect relationship in this world but we can give out our best to bring any relationship to almost perfect. I've been stressing this phrase ever since... "Imperfections makes any relationship close to perfection" i dont want to elaoborate on this... but think again... maybe i was right... But sometimes, even if we are giving out our best to bring any relationshiop close to perfections, it just doesnt work,,, so what's the next thing to do?... simply think a million times, then decide...

Feb 14, supposedly, will be one of the happiest days in my 21 years of existence.. well technically, i am happy but for some incidents that happened this day, im telling you.. "this is sOo not my day!" (ate kayanne? isdatchu!?) hehe

Let's set my love story aside... I am happy, contented and grateful for the all the things that's going around...

anyway...

THURSDAY = Feb14 = Valentines day... = not my day

My car ends in 7 which means i am not allowed to travel on thursdays until 10 am - 3pm and resumes on 7pm... I gave my car one great bath since it's valentines' day and since i have enough time to clean him.. i got him shampooed, waxed and everything was in their proper places.. after which, i went home, had my self wrapped up and ready to go to work.. sa parking ng compound namin, mejo pataas, may slope kumbaga and it has always been my problem getting up into the highway para makaalis...incidentally, kaninang umaga, may inaassemble na "pool table" sa may parking, nasa side yung car ko, at nung ready na ako, i mina-ne-obra ko na yung car ko pataas sa gate... surprisingly, nahirapan ako.. so tumirik ang car ko sa gitna ng slope... i stepped on the breaks, released it and tried to regain my speed but unfortunately, it didnt worked... naipit yung paa ko sa loob and then BOOM! the next thing i know, lumipad na yung pool table sa harap ko.. and i had a huge dent on my hood.. poor car, i duno what to do.. i left the house still kasi late na ko at wala na ng makocover-an... seriously nalungkot tlga ako... i never thought na maaksidente ako ng ganun.. it happened most probably because God wants to remind me not to be so Laxed while driving.. life is so  precious..

That was my second time, yung una, nakabasag ako ng lense ng vintage car, na pinapareplace sakin ang lense.. hai... troubles..

sabi ni papa, its ok to encounter accidents once in a while pero twice in 2 weeks, think again.. maybe something's wrong... which i think, meron ngang mali,,,

after the incident, sunod sunod nang ka-ewanan nangyari kaya ayun,,,

sometimes, we need to take things slow... relax and keep our pace.

still, i had a wonderful, simple yet funny valentines.. ambaho ng utot!! eik! hehehehe "NOT YET ALREADY!!!"

Last sunday, i attended a christian service at the United Methodist Church... and the pastor mentioned that...

The antidote for sin....






for when you Love, you free yourself from doing things that may be wrong...

there are things that we just cannot explain nor put into words

and we dont owe and explanation to anyone... and i dont owe them big time...

i simply cant explain why things went out of their proper places..

i may be a devil to some people's eyes...

but

behind that devilish act,

i am an angel who tried so hard just to prevent someone from hurting..

however, the angel who pretends to be as such

will still be a devil to everyone's sight...

... i said no comment... =p

Im tagging: Nokie, Misao, Nick, Mars, Melissa, Amy lim,

Tagged by ate kayanne =)

Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about his/her self. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

So here's my list...

1. Not an Aircon/Electric fan FAN - I easily get cold. I just dont like the feeling where the moving air rushes through my body... ewan ko... Basta, lagi kami nagaaway ng kptd ko pag mxdong malakas ang electric fan o aircon... Im really not a fan hehehe

2. Extremes makes me go sleep - exposure to extreme temperatures (hot/cold) makes me sleep wherever i am - hospital, taxi, jeep car, haus everywhere.. i am not narcoleptic, pero parang ganun na nga... alam yan ni ate kayanne... lagi ako nakakatulog, hot or cold.. kaya dapat tama lng.. hehehe

3. I dont eat chocolates until they melt - whenever i eat cadbury, i always make sure that they are soft and that they almost melted... I love eating chocs in a dirty manner... it simply brings me back to my childhood, yung madumi kumain... What i do, nilalagay ko malapit sa stove yung chocolates habang nagluluto ako, then i eat them pag tunaw na.. Yummy!!! =)

4. I cry inside the movie house - pag madrama yung movie, naiiyak ako.. hahaha kahiya!

5. Underwear model - is my frustration... Kahit nung bata pa ako... gus2 ko na maging underwear model.. i wish i could have a great body that everyone would drool over hahaha

6. Tissue is my bestfriend/my life saver - sipunin ako, specially pag umaga, so tissue must always be present... blow here, there and everywhere hahaha pag walang tissue, nilulunok ko... maalat yun! eww! hahahaha

I can say that 2007 has been the year that has skilled me on a lot of things that school has never taught me. Year 2007 has been my practical exam without even having the lectures and laboratory handouts.. Been put into tests unequipped, unprepared...

My Life has been tested in so many ways...

But everytime that i come to think of all those tests that i have experienced, i just find myself staring nowhere for a reason that i can't imagine how life has molded be to become who i am until this very last day of the year.

Experience is the best teacher and the people that we encounter in our daily lives are the best teachers next to experiences. These stuffs - i consider my blessings for without these two things, i wont learn my lessons the hard way.

Learning my lessons the hard way... Take it literally... Learning lessons from school is never easy. Read books, write lectures,  jot down notes, answer exercises, quizzes and take final exams. What more if the lessons that you are about to learn were not written in books, nor in your handouts, not a written quiz nor a written final exam? It is the hardway that i say... You have to endure a lot pain, hardships, sweat, and a river of tears.. but in the end, happiness will prevail.

Talking about happiness, my bestfriend and i were some sort of arguing last night. She's forcing me to do something that she thought would make me happy.. Then i told her...

I need not to do what you are saying for that wont make me more happy.. I am happy right now. I have work, i have a happy and healthy family, i have great friends, i met people who shows concern and love, and there is nothing more that i could ask for... It is more than enough.

I normally gauge my happiness with these few things... Work, Family and Friends... If i still have these three things in my life, i would be the happiest person God has ever created. There are people who are deprived of either one or two of these factors, but i have them all, so i have no reason to be sad.. or shall i say, i have every reason to be happy. Plus the fact that God sometimes gives us bonus packages on times when we least expect things to happen... He sent me one... a bubbly angel.. =) an addition to my happiness.

This year has brought me and taught me a lot of things....

So where's my Grown up New Year's List?!

• I graduated
• I loved
• felt love
• gained and maintained friends
• Passed the board exam
• broke up
• got a job
• stayed healthy
• moved on
• met friends
• met someone
• smiling
• happy
• I JUST LOST COUNTING....

Not the actual list though... basta... Ive grown to be the better renz now... I am so looking forward for 2008, for another 366 days..